surprise.surprise.

Slamat malam! Eh. Atau pagi?

*intermezzo*
Gue tb2 mnyadari sesuatu. When you say "Morning!" It implies that you are saying hello, and when you say "night!" Lebih ke arah goodbye. Iya ga sih? Apa prasaan gue doank? Abis gue mau mengawali post dengan kata "nite!" Tapi kesannya gue mengakhiri postingan gue. Haha. Jd pake morning aja kali ya?

Okei. Diulang.
Morning!
Haha.

ANYWAY.
Its 1.30 am and I'm still wide awake. Suatu hal yg sgt amat jarang gue lakukan. Krna biasanya gue skali nempel sama bantal akan dengan mudahnya tidur. Gue rasa gr2 td tidur siang 3,5 jm jd masih seger gue. Haha.

Hmm.
Sbnernya ga tau jg gue mw nulis apaan. haha. Awlnya tb2 brniat mnulis krn gue pikir kali2 aja gr2 ga tau mw nulis apa jdnya ngantuk n tidur. Haha. ga ada apa2 sii besok gue jdnya mw tidur semalem (atau sepagi?) apapun ga masalah. Haha.

Senen kmrn, tgl 7 dec, was actually my birthday. :)Pagi2 dtg ke kampus buat ujian, dtg2 dinyanyiin hepi bersdey, selesai ujian rapat, trus selesai rapat dikasi surprise sama teman2 gue, lanjut choir practice, pulang nykp n tante gue dah bikin masakan heboh gtu. Trus spupu, tante n bbrp tmen gue dtg ke rumah, makan d rumah, trus kita prgi ke tmpat es campur langganan gtu (named dankdoel, udah akrab bgt gt sama gue n tman2 gue) ngobrol2, balik lagi ke rumah, maen d rumah gue sampe malem, trus udah malem pada pulang, dan seharian gue bales2in wall, sms, tweet org2 yg ngucapin n actually that's it. No different than any other day except for the cake and the happy-birthday-song. gue sih sgt bersyukur gue bsa mnikmati hari ulg taon, tpi jd agk gmanaaa gtu gue. Haha. Abis biasaa bgt sih. Apa gue yg udah kehilangan smangat idup ye? Hahaha. Bhkn pas sblom hari senen, nykp gue nyuruh gue ngundang tmen buat makan, gue malah nolak. Gue malah bilang mknannya suru kirim ke rumah mreka masing2 aja, ga usah pada dtg ke rumah. Haha. Aneh memang.

Gue jadi kangen masa2 ulg taon wktu kecil. Haha. Bbrp minggu lalu pas gue (baca: nykp gue) beres2 rumah, ada foto2 gue pas kecil dolo. Pas gue masih tk, umur 4 taon gtu, gue merayakan ulg taon di TK, I would dress super nice, love the birthday cake, my teacher would write a big "HAPPY BIRTHDAY" in the white board with drawings here and there, lots and lots of balloons and presents of course and I still can't forget how excited I used to be when it come to opening the present. Huhh. Oh how I miss those moments. Haha. kdg2 gue jadi sirik sama anak kecil. *jadi mellow*

ANYWAY lagii, tanggal 6 desnya kk grja gue ultah gtu. So from 6 dec to 11dec I was busy planning a surprise for her. Rencana awalnya minggu subuh dtg ke rumah dia. Tp ga jd. Akhirnya maunya minggu mlm. Again, ga jadi. Akhirnya hari jumat malem, abis GR buat natalan youth greja gue, di dankdoel. Hari kamis gue, supin, osa n jojo prgi beli kado. Akirnya kta beli pashmina gt buat dia n I ended up ikutan beli. :p trus hari H nya sibuk bungkus kado, beli sgala sesuatu yg kurang, n tb2, abis GR kk grja gue mau ke DEPOK aja gtu. Akirnya surprisenya lsg d grja. Kk grja gue dibeliin kue 1 slice gtu, trus dia tiup lilin nya ngajak2 gue. Abis itu kado dikasi trus udah.

Abis dr greja, tmn2 gue ttp pda ngjakin makan d dankdoel gt. Gue pikir hayuk2 ajaa. Pas gue dtg tb2 udah ada satu slice kue lagi dgn lilin diatasnya, trs tmn2 gue pd nyanyi hepi bersdey gtu. Trus pikiran prtama gue adlh "ooh, pada bcanda nih anak2, gr2 kuenya masih ada 1 slice" jd gue ktawa2 aje. Then I realize that after all this time I was busy planning surprise for other people, they were also planning a surprise for me! Haha. Dan kalimat prtama yg muncul dr mulut gue adlh "hah? Gue juga?" LOL. Dudul gt gue. Hahaha.

I love planning surprise because it shows to people how much you care about them. But usually I don't like being surprised. Not because I don't like people caring about me, but because I have high expectation of the surprise and over time I learned to stop expecting because the higher you expect, the more it hurts when you fall. I used to think surprise should be big and great, but this year birthday I learned that surprise just have to be unexpected. :)

love you all my friend!

Nite!